I’ve been feeling so existential lately. It’s every time I think of death. Every time I realise that in the blink of an eye, everything i’ve worked towards, own, achieved, stress about and love, will just vanish. It sounds morbid, but that’s because it is.
But I don’t think these things and wallow in a pit of sadness thinking ‘what’s the point in living?’. I think, ‘s**t I may as well do literally everything I want to do‘ – just in case. I don’t think this is a bad thing. I actually think it’s something people all-too-often forget to do. I see too many people being caught up in a small perils of everyday living (myself included) These days 80% of the time my head is in a good place and I can look past the little things (but i’m only human right?).
I think the best way to do everything you want to do in life is to take on little challenges. Whether they’re emotional, physical or academic, every day you should try and push yourself a tiny bit further. It’s like how my Mum used to explain running to me. “Jen, if you just run even one metre further than you did in the last run, then you’re making progress.” It may have been the broken record of my childhood, but there’s no denying it’s truth. When I journal I like to write three three things I’m grateful for, three things I need to do, and three little ‘win’s’ of the day. Even if the ‘win’ is ‘ate more vegetables than usual‘ or ‘cooked a home meal‘. It’s a chance to remember that my day was meaningful and that I lived it in line with your own set of morals and values. The win’s become even more meaningful if they are your ‘to do’s‘ from the previous day.. week.. or month. Achieving things you plan to do really are the little wins of life.
It’s your goals, your personal achievement, and your journey. Nobody else’s – so stop looking at them.